The course truly has changed my life. Although I have found when I don't do my mental & spiritual homework I find myself slipping into my old control freak tendencies. When things feel out of control I tend to clamp down & try to control the things I can.
So with all the recent soul searching, number crunching, and pondering, it's been tough. With the crushing rent increase and the decison not to renew the lease on the shop I have been pondering and plotting my next chapter.
How do I maintain the supportive rowdy community that has developed over the last 8 years? How to do that and support my own inner artist? It would be easy to just move into a new building and start over.
With the plan to relocate to the water after our son graduates from school, it seems flatout fool hardy to start over yet again with a brand new lease and building. I would barely be up to speed and it would be time to head out.
I wait for my back to heal so I can start packing. I wait to move my shelves to the Old Screen Door in Delaware so I can put merchandise on them. Here in Falls Church I wait for the possibility of a local collaborative venue. I wait for the approvals and legal reviews and paperwork and, and, and...
Waiting is so not my nature, I am used to being Large and In Charge. If I was in charge (I think) I would be so far down the road it would be next week. Or so I think. But when I stop to truly think, I know it's God's way of telling me to go do my homework. And wait to see what happens.